Writing in role: Chadwick Meade

After William goes on a killing spree

I can't believe it. What just happened, was it real. Are they dead, is this some weird dream I'm trapped in.  Like what happened is in a parallel universe.

Is it weird for me to not feel anything. I don't feel scared or upset or happy. Just satisfied. I mean, Bennett being dead hardly effects me. In fact if anything it's a positive he isn't around to constantly annoy me anymore. Cissy, was just irrelevant. As nice as she was. She was suppressed and crippled by Bennett, no longer her own person. Nicholas... Again although the event could be perceived as rather sad, I really can't see how it will effect my day to day routine. I hardly associated with them anyway, the absence of the three and William will mean nothing to me. As for Tristan. I don't know when I'll see him again, if I ever see him again. As far as I'm concerned , I got away. No one knows I was there, I can just carry on as before. Get my grades, get out of here. Do what I need to do.

The thing is, when i saw the gun in Williams hand. I didn't fear death, after all it would only speed up what would inevitably happen. If he had chosen to shoot me there and then, it would have gotten rid of so much worry. The inconvenience of school life, it would relieve a little pressure on the world. I suppose my death would also be pretty irrelevant. After all I'm a tiny spec just like everyone
else. I doubt anyone would notice.

So I'll be in school tomorrow. Looking at the people who claim to be close to the victims. Pretending to be upset for attention and popularity. Don't expect any sympathy from me, nor any recollection of events. We are mere particles in the universe. Losing three will not change a thing, it may even better it. Who knows, maybe I can get on with my A levels in peace now...